Spingere

To be honest, I just wanted to feel good
To avoid seeing you when it’s pouring outside
Convince the neighbors to make love
Stay away from heart-wrenching endings

Don’t lift a finger to stay together
Enjoy the balance while it lasts
To be honest, I just wanted to feel good
Remind myself you’re beautiful once a month

To be honest, I just wanted to feel good
Worry about your eyes when it suits me
Look at the sky just for the comets
Find meaning in everything like a good priest

To be honest, I just wanted to feel good
Lay on the ground until the sun goes down
Hoping others have found love too
In the empty streets of deserted cities

And miles and miles
Of cliffs and dumps
Of balconies overlooking tracks and exits
We ask nothing more from the world
Than to destroy us and then save us
Before it’s too late for the meds and the plastics
This urge to push ourselves
And to push and to push

To be honest, I just wanted to feel good
Mop the floor once a month
And not dust the high shelves
Of a bookshelf with bare feet

To be honest, I just wanted to feel good
Please the people who faint at blood draws
The emergency rooms are never empty
Of donors and big engines

And miles and miles
Of cliffs and dumps
Of balconies overlooking tracks and exits
We ask nothing more from the world
Than to destroy us and then save us
Before it’s too late for the meds and the plastics
This urge to push ourselves
And to push and to push