Distante

Ah
Hey yo, ah

I've been thinking that I've become more distant
That I'm not the same as before and that hurts so much
As time goes by, life loses its charm
And the higher you climb, the harder the impact will be

When you realize that what used to be a game is now an addiction
That's when you can see the cliff so close
You realize you're screwed
When you're a mess, writing in your room

I don't know what life is, nor what death is
But I've lived through more things and they're not so different
I'm feeling so cold just thinking about the emptiness
But that's mine and it sets me apart from people

I'm not an unhappy guy but I'm not happy either
Having feelings shows you're alive
But that's the rational part because the soul is different
Because if you feel dead, it's only the body that's alive

And look at me, look at me, look me in the eyes
And tell me life is a gift
Dare to tell me seriously because
I can't see beyond this cloudy sky

I have brothers, not friends
I also have wounds that have never healed
I know who would go to death with me
And I know how to tell who's just in it for themselves

Seventeen years of life and I'd be lying
If I said I've never enjoyed it
So many nights looking at the sky
Wanting to take flight and reach the stars

I can't talk to you about a love more real than that of my parents
I'd die for them, that's my absolute truth
I've laughed out loud, I've also cried in sorrow
And I've comforted brothers crying over a bitch

The red is the gaze, the dwelling of the beast
The sore fist is the reflection of anguish
Addiction for everyone at first is anesthesia
But those flowers you smoke eventually become thorns

If you want to shoot, shoot me but in the face
My head has been screaming the alarm for a while
I keep doing things I shouldn't
Because seeing someone you love cry is what fractures the soul

There are things that sometimes I think about
That I can't explain through my verses
Because for me there's no difference between emptiness
Nothing and the infinity of the universe

There's no God but there's energy
We're part of it, just like everything
And maybe when our life ends
We simply continue to be part of the cosmos

Try to think beyond time
Humans are afraid and that's why there are beliefs
But who knows if all this is true
Or if we're just the result of a short nap

A picture is worth a thousand words
So look at my soul and try to describe it
You couldn't because we're limited
And there's no word that could define it

I'm facing the world in this fucking darkness
Thinking about eternity
Every day people leave and never come back
I feel the cold of emptiness, I talk to loneliness

Writing helps when your heart is in your mouth
Escape for a few hours when no one matters
But the same fucking routine always repeats
Keeping it all inside until the moment you explode

My balls are swelling, I just think about escaping
And doing everything I haven't done just for fear of failing
I'm smoking my cigarette with my desire to explode
Finishing a verse that I don't know if I'll record, ah