Himawari

In a gentle way, you put on makeup
Pretending to smile
I understand your lies too well
So I just quietly wave my hand

Thank you and goodbye are no longer needed for us
It's all a lie, saying that while laughing at you
Because I still want you

Always
Straight enough to pierce through
You who start walking towards tomorrow
Dazzling, beautiful, and painful
Sunflowers blooming in the darkness
The calm after the storm
I was in love with you

To not let the memories rust away
So tears won't dissolve them
To be attached to my life
I'll slowly start to lick them

But why
Do I also have the desire to see scary things?
I'm also someone who seeks love
In a world without you
What color would it be?
Touching someone else's skin
Putting on a facade or blushing
Is that really what I'm doing?

Giving up
Adapting
Conforming to someone else
Thinking about it
In reality, I don't think deeply about it
Swallowing thoughts and
Deceiving myself
Trying to escape from troublesome things
Just living selfishly

So
Looking straight enough to pierce through
I look at you who starts walking towards tomorrow
Dazzling, beautiful, and painful
Sunflowers blooming in the darkness
The calm after the storm
I was in love with you
I will always be in love with you