Noite de Insonia

It's three in the morning
I feel like my mind is completely crossed
Shit from the party
It constantly ends me, I can't sleep
A damn insomnia
Anxiety that shakes me
I count the minutes on the clock, time doesn't pass
I reflect and think I'm going to explode, where to go
What to do, I don't know
I calm down and let my thoughts run
I'll think about this life that's hard to live
I'm living freely at twenty-three
Always dreaming about everything, dealing with life
That promises many things that I'm always wanting to embrace
From here or there, the way it is
Always using a weapon: The willpower
To walk in search of the goals
That I need to achieve without which I feel like it really won't work
I'm indignant with the guys who grew up by my side
I see they're just living life high, it's tough
This fact really irritates me
They don't build anything, don't chase anything
They prefer to gather dreams, live the same
Instead of having to face barriers
I don't understand how they live like this, stuck in time
I regret, oh Lord...
May good winds come in my favor
I need to continue my birth every day
At every moment, at every moment

I remember the past, the days of eighty-nine
And I was nineteen
And I already feel a certain longing
The desire to go back, but it's not possible
It was a time I lived with great intensity
And that today brings me a lot of nostalgia for the friends who left their mark
An era
Of someone who marked me with words, gestures, and sincere actions
That bitch left and didn't even say goodbye
Left me in time, went, disappeared
(And she never came back...)
Believe me, she never came back
It's hard to understand how it all happened, thanks
It was a part of my life that I miss today
(A lot...)
A great episode that unfortunately can't be repeated
I consider this time a valuable part of my story
And it's taking a good advantage in the competition with the present
that's hard to live
Lately I've noticed
Several guys trying to mess up my side, trying to erase my value
Bastards looking at me with anger wanting to set me up for a big trap
But even so, I, Nill, keep going, no, not with me
I screw those who try to screw me
This has been necessary to survive
I stop to think about these people in search of an explanation
And I begin to realize that they all reveal a poverty of spirit that I don't believe
Oh my God, I laugh at all this
This world is really weird

I confess I've been a bit confused
And in having to know the other side of the world
Figures form in my subconscious
And the nights turn into depressing thoughts
I think that everything will end one day and how will my
stage be in another place
Marvin, Marley, Hendrix, Cris, Tosh, my buddy DG
My old buddy DG are gone
And they didn't send news from there
This painful path is tough, I can't fit in
Theories, I know thousands
If the other side is more beautiful, I don't know anymore
But one day unfortunately I'll have to go there, to come back later
This cycle is true, I know I won't escape
When I think that in life we only take the life we lead
I get messed up, it's all complicated
But one thing is certain: MRN, an acronym, my past, my
present, my future that I will carry for all my life
As Jobim says even in the farewell
Oh... I think this damn insomnia is getting tough
Good night São Paulo I'm still awake
I'm still awake...