Nada Ni Nadie

I seek an unattainable calm
The atmosphere here is not reliable
I want to be alone if only everything will be fine
Let no one speak to me
Do not break this silence, it's mine
Today I want to feel the cold
Vertigo that the world stops and separates me from the fatigue of living like this
Tired of pretending excuses muses
I feel like running away from myself, things I lived
This scar of traumas
Bleeds verses soulless the soul
It's my cursed truth
Half genius half withered flower
That fades because no matter what I do
The prize won't change my mood
It's this terrible feeling that has me pale
I'm not warm with my friends
There's no remedy anymore
They ask what's wrong and I just look serious
My beloved feels the tedium says I'm distant
She looks at me and I know she sees constant disappointment
And if life is a moment today I want to forget that I exist
I want to escape to my desert without being seen
Get out of this circle
Fly to another place and stay still
There solitude is my amulet

Nothing or no one accompanies me in this dance today
I want to be alone if only everything will be fine
Let no one speak, I'm out of breath
For once let the world be silent

Nothing or no one accompanies me in this dance today
I want to be alone if only everything will be fine
Let no one speak, I'm out of breath
For once let the world be silent

I don't give a shit what the rest say
Whether they're happy or envy me for everything I achieve
My only enemy is this mind broken since childhood
Opening forbidden doors pushing me into the void
I smile out of obligation and hardly see my own
My family, the people who loved me the most
With my rap I'm in mourning, I don't enjoy it, it's my poison
Seeing that no matter what I write I think I'm not that good
And if I lose confidence given the circumstances
I wander like a zombie, fears I never overcame
And with God I made a pact too sad
He never talks to me and I don't say he doesn't exist
You lost your way, I lost it playing with fear
Feeling treacherous nerves tensing my fingers
I can bear it, I wanted to avoid it and nothing changes
Now my heart is like a winter in Finland
There's no anger, just sorrow, a gangrene that rots my veins
Lost piece of the puzzle, born on October 1st
And since then condemned and crazy
Thorny rose bleeds those who touch it
I wanted company and got a monologue
I wanted a happy ending and stayed in the prologue
Drugs are the worst psychologist, never curing my suffocation
I just want to run to another horizon and be alone

Nothing or no one accompanies me in this dance today
I want to be alone if only everything will be fine
Let no one speak, I'm out of breath
For once let the world be silent

Nothing or no one accompanies me in this dance today
I want to be alone if only everything will be fine
Let no one speak, I'm out of breath
For once let the world be silent

For all those who have felt lonely, empty
Strange wandering among oceans of skulls
For all those who don't know how to escape harm, Nach
Your contemporary woes
Nothing or no one
Let the world be silent