Viviendo

After so many songs
So many words taking refuge in my mouth
Today I'm still in love with this mic like the first day
Making rap my life jacket
Surfing the world, living
I have a free soul and a body I live tied to
And I have a trunk with 'I love yous' that I've kept
My songs have traveled to places where I won't be
My lips have sealed chests that I kissed
I fell in love with so many things that it hurt
I enjoyed a thousand battles, it didn't matter if I lost
I begged for hugs before a door slam
Wounded by an arrow that still bleeds me
I've been a guide, I've been a burden, I've been shelter
I've walked the streets like a beggar
I have friends that can be counted on one hand
I have long-lived parents and seven siblings
I have a bouquet of illusions that rot when saying goodbye

More than in God, I believed in the weight of my actions
One half so sad, the other half laughing
Now I understand, I'm living
I'm going to go outside and stop time
I'm going to write this like a testament
I'm going to shout loud until my breath runs out
Loving and suffering, living
I'm going to turn off the lights and look inside myself
I'm going to undress without thinking before the lament
I'm going to slide like wind on the cement
Crying and smiling, living
I've spent the night in such dirty slums few enter
I've woven gardens where there were once stones
I lost peace to win the war
I drowned in my fog and then in bottles of gin
I've slept in doorways and mansions
I've drawn the world like an amusement park
Yielding to temptations and mirages
I've lied to so many and even more to myself
From the books I read of my eternal wisdom
I found solace opening the sky between some legs
For my never given kisses, I've cried waterfalls
I've flown from Tokyo to Manhattan
I've seen the wonderful creation in all things
I've suffered depression, nervous breakdowns
One half asleep, the other half burning
Now I understand, I'm living
I'm going to go outside and stop time
I'm going to write this like a testament
I'm going to shout loud until my breath runs out
Loving and suffering, living
I'm going to turn off the lights and look inside myself
I'm going to undress without thinking before the lament
I'm going to slide like wind on the cement
Crying and smiling, living
I've seen people die and release their last breath in peace
A light coming out of their chest and rising quickly
Always unable to tame the fireflies
Always seeking some affection even in the swamps
I ran to bathe in the sea under the storm
I suffered desire like a slow death
I opened doors in my mind that should never be opened
Out of hatred I did crazy things, out of love even more
I've distanced myself from people out of fear
I've seen infallible men collapse to the ground
I've swum through the Nile and through the edge of my pillow
I've cried my anger like waterfalls
I had whims of all kinds
But a pencil and paper were enough to make me rich
One half so still, the other half running
Now I understand, I'm living
So many people
So many places
And I, always split in two halves
Enjoying pleasures, accepting suffering
Nach, through me
Living
I'm going to go outside and stop time
I'm going to write this like a testament
I'm going to shout loud until my breath runs out
Loving and suffering, living
I'm going to turn off the lights and look inside myself
I'm going to undress without thinking before the lament
I'm going to slide like wind on the cement
Crying and smiling, living
I'm going to go outside and stop time (Yeah)
I'm going to write this like a testament
I'm going to shout loud until my breath runs out
Loving and suffering, living
I'm going to turn off the lights and look inside myself
I'm going to undress without thinking before the lament
I'm going to slide like wind on the cement
Crying and smiling, living