Me He Perdido

I tried for the third time
I put on my beige suit
I looked down and crossed myself
I found you among the rubble

And there was still a wall standing
I saw you leaning on it and I think
You did it to not lose faith
The Christ on the wall shrugged

And you with your voice, that voice
And your pale skin
With the shine in your wheat-colored hair
With that other shine I imagine behind your coat

You spent these last winters
In the warmth of a hell built on love
To end up in demolition
You tell me 'now you are warned,
Don't trust a wounded animal'
And what was I telling you...?
I have lost myself

I tried seven more times
I wanted to see what's behind
Your composure
And open your door with forty-three locks

I guessed you on your balcony
Whistling a very long song
Thinking 'is this right or not?'
So I snapped my fingers and appeared by your side

'You know, now you are warned,
Don't trust a wounded animal'
And oh! don't worry, I lied
I'm an expert hunter
You've seen it, it's my world in ruins
What is pure today is rotten tomorrow
And what was I telling you...?
I have lost myself

Kill me if I'm no longer useful to you
Kill me after reading the message
But now I will undress without taking off the suit

I saw it, it's your world collapsing
That 'to hate is natural'
You told me, I must admit, with some conviction

And then you sang sweet screams
The oldest of rituals began
Was it you, was it me, or was it simply something higher?
And you added 'if we do it, my fool,
Then let's do it properly'
'And how is that?' I asked and you said 'not like that'
And you stopped, 'I'm forbidden to do it'
I protested soaked and more than bewildered
And now yes, now I...
I have lost myself

That now yes, now yes, now yes I know
That I have lost myself
Because it's just thinking of you
And ending up lost
Because just by thinking of you
I get lost