El Angél Simón

Simón, since you left I have to say
The truth is, we are not bad at all without you
It is also true that we could be better
But you see, good things die in the sun
And now memory is my guide
Because yes, I think about you every day
Since that August morning
Reinvented ad nauseam
Without being able to find anything at all
Neither an explanation nor a why
that I can hold on to
(And now I don't know why
The mattress comes to mind
That Javi and I had to go down to the trash
Without being able to stop looking at that dark spot
That you left us there as an inheritance and memory
Before leaving on your last trip
Probably to hell)

And you're going to excuse me
If I never bring you roses
are you going to allow me
tell some things
About the little I know
Of your days of wine and roses
With all the jokes
Like the one where when passing in front of a funeral home
You told us "bend down, it's not going to be
"Let them take your measurements"
That was your advice, your wise advice
And it wasn't bad, but you forgot
Something important:
You had to bend down too
Yes, you had to bend over too
But you never wanted to take care of yourself
No, you never wanted to take care of yourself.

And I want to think that for once
I did something better than you
I want to think that for once
I did something better
that you don't even
You finished that farewell letter
That Santi found lost on the computer
And now that you lost the game so absurdly
Now I'm tired
And I'm even afraid of my own life
And I know I'll have it all my fucking life
Decide what you decide

Well in the end maybe you got lucky
Because maybe - you tell me -
Better than being a lonely and ruined man
It turns out to be, as the judge said, "the deceased"
(While covering his nose with his handkerchief)
And from anywhere
Wherever you're rotting now
I just want you to know that I'm not afraid of you anymore
that now I'm tired
And I'm only afraid of my own life
And I know I will have it
all my fucking life
Decide what you decide

Like you always said
"Little formality, but let it last"
Like you always said

Thank you

That's right and it will
All my life
Decide what you decide.