Diver

The surface of the water is breaking apart
In the sky so blue, I can’t even picture tomorrow
A crowd of people gasping for air
I’ve been drowning here for who knows how long

Spitting out my sadness
I just need to look ahead
But I can’t keep it together like this
Even if I turn everything against me
I can still feel a faint light
I’ll go that far, goodbye

I want to breathe, but it’s so painful here
Nights where I can only stare at the darkness
A giant wave of despair floating
I want to confirm that I’m still alive
Let’s aim for the deep sea and take a breath again

If I flip the map in my head
It’s filled with things I lack, I was scared last night
I thought I was strong all along
I always thought I was stronger than anyone

A lost swan
Was floating in the starry sky
Like a comforting rain that started to fall
But somehow, it feels like we can’t get used to it
If the stars are stars, then I’m me
I’ll go that far, I wonder
Oh

Swallowing heavy anger
Just sketching a little prayer
Like a sign, the rain started to fall

I want to breathe, but it’s so painful here
I’m not just someone who stares at the darkness
I can’t even float in this despair

If I want to confirm that I’m still alive
Let’s aim for the deep sea just one more time

Try taking a breath
If I realize it’s just happiness, I won’t drown again.