Mesmo Dizendo Que Não

I see the colors forming just to then go away
If I hadn't seen it, I wouldn't miss it
I should have known that if it looks like a movie, it was all a farce
I gave my all but to you it was all a joke

Stay away for a while, be gone for a few days
I lay my head on my pillow, haven't slept for days
I feel distant with these pills, it's been making me more depressed
If I procrastinate, if I hadn't insisted

Please don't forget me, I swear I don't want it to be like this
I swear I was drugged, sorry for you to tell me but I didn't care
I hope you find me on the other side, been thinking about the time we've spent
I never thought I was the wrong one, this drug I didn't put aside, that's why I'm always drugged
All these curses push me away

And I swear I don't know how to look at your face
You broke my heart, I'm picking up the pieces
Smoke in my lungs, I feel like I'm drowning
I feel like I'm lost and won't come back

I won't answer your call
Alprazolam with my bitch slowed down my heart
Will you love me even saying no?
Would you help me because I think not

And if I bled, would they help? I think not
I don't care about promises, action is what matters
I don't care about bitches because I'm an asshole
They set a trap, it was all a setup

She didn't even feel remorse when she saw me on the ground
Bro, I even fuck with opium, too bad benzo is good
He wants to join the gang, I feel sorry for this shit
Girl found me cute? Admit she's blind