N.I.N.A

Nina
Who's coming through the gate?
The tough one, the fierce one, the strong

There's a lot of neurosis in the mind
What the eyes don't see
The heart doesn't feel

I think mine is a little shot
Insecurity and fear
Coming side by side

Do you think it's easy being black?
Try to be seen as just a pussy
They drag you to work
With the intention of trouble
They confuse a woman with those nympho fags

I'll tell you
I've hated myself so much for wearing XL
Vomit and fasting to get to XS
And it's all the fault of this bunch of motherfuckers, damn

Fuck!
I fight like hell to be able to grow
My body doesn't sell, how am I going to do?
Fucked up system, screw it, I'm going to beat you

And if I were skinny?
Would they make me Queen of the Favela?
Bikini photoshoot in the alleys
Like Gabriela, cloves and cinnamon

I'm damn big, I deserve respect
Giant problem, you know I face it
With a strength greater than my nipple
Don't come and shape me, you know I don't accept

From where I am
Just aim
Fierce as hell, you can't touch me

I've overcome all this
I've changed my world
I'm breaking your expectation of seeing me fail

From where I am
Just aim
Fierce as hell, you can't touch me

I've overcome all this
I've changed my world
I'm breaking your expectation of seeing me fail

And if I were resigned?
Willing to have a signed contract
Earning a third of shitty white
Accepting to be formally enslaved

And if I just agreed?
Accepted everything as truth?
Embraced cowardly talk?
Reducing my lifespan by half

And if this doesn't work out
My time is short and it's not a matter of ego
Would you sustain the shit I carry?
I run faster than Ashanti to make it work

In the end, everything sucks
My dream is big, but my balance blinds me
In the end, the bills that catch me
And I think about staying all the time making money with both legs open

From where I am
Just aim
Fierce as hell, you can't touch me

I've overcome all this
I've changed my world
I'm breaking your expectation of seeing me fail

From where I am
Just aim
Fierce as hell, you can't touch me

I've overcome all this
I've changed my world
I'm breaking your expectation of seeing me fail

But what if I were white?
Would I have space in your group?
Singing chorus and making a lot of money
Doing the minimum to buy my dinner

And my dream is to be rich
But damn, I'm black, you have a problem with that
I've hated myself a lot for becoming Nina
But the fact is that Anna cries when I embark on these trips

And if I die, will you remember me?
Is my reach good for activism?
Will the newspaper ever feature me as 1% or who went off the radar?

In the end, everything sucks
My dream is big, but being a target blinds me
In the end
The bills that catch me and I think I'll never stop living alert

From where I am
Just aim
Fierce as hell, you can't touch me

I've overcome all this
I've changed my world
I'm breaking your expectation of seeing me fail