Autodestructivo

Today I am
Somewhat self-destructive
Although I am happy
And I live for your eyes

Today I am
In the same place as before
But I have a thousand reasons
To look forward

I want to know
If I continue or take shortcuts
And I'm not sure
If at this point I go up or down

I don't know what I say
Nor do I think about what I write
In fact, I don't want to think about it

I know very well what I'm looking for
And maybe
I don't want to find it

Don't go
Let me get there
Say goodbye or just see you, nothing more

Sometimes I dream that a river
Passes by my side
And takes away
What had mattered to me

I look up and see everything that is coming
Which is also, in part, yours
And it's what holds me the most

Don't go
Let me get there
Say goodbye or just see you, nothing more

And I dream that the river takes me away
From the important things
But I know that without looking at you
I can see you everywhere

And today I am, today I am
Somewhat self-destructive
Although I know I am happy
And for your eyes
For your eyes I live

It's just that I live for you