Meñiques

I want to think that you pretend that you don't miss me anymore
And that you don't care if you hurt my heart
That you deceive me and not with another man precisely
But with excuses you use to justify being indifferent

That you don't feel the same
And that recently you became infected with selfishness
That the abyss that separates us doesn't affect you at all
And that you prefer to be far away because you can't stand seeing my face
I want to think that you pretend that you don't love me anymore
And that you don't die if you see me with other women
That every time I call you're crazy to answer
But you play tough, that's why you turn off your phone
That you deny me in your house every time I call the landline
And that what your mom told me is a total lie
I want to think that you'll do the same a couple more times
But I'm still in the same place as almost 3 months ago
I want to think that you're playing and that you forgot me so quickly
Because you made new friends
But I know it's bullshit because no one plays for so many days
And that's when I think I was thinking nonsense
And the torture begins
Until suddenly something tells me that you still think of me
I don't know what game you're playing, but if you want to play, I'll play
But give me a chance to kiss you again

Even though you're not here, I feel like a child
Playing that you give and take away your affection
In case you didn't notice, this is hurting me
And I feel like you enjoy it, and that seems strange to me
Because
I remember that once you told me you would never do it
And it happened
And if it was because of time
Tomorrow I'll call you again to ask for forgiveness
And I hope you explain to me what we're playing

So I'll enter your game
And every time they ask me how I am
I'll say I feel on fire
That I'm pretending to be blind
And that I don't want to hear from you either
But if you're mentioned, I lose because it's obvious that it's not true
Although I've learned not to hold your hand
And that you won't call me to wake me up early
Nothing will prevent me from feeling like a worm
When I'm alone in my room
And you're with someone somewhere far away
Even though sometimes I feel it's in vain
I'll keep playing even though it's not very healthy
Because frankly
I feel jealous and I can't control it
And I feel like a fool
Because I know I'm playing alone
I have no more comfort than to see your photos
Where you smiled saying you trust me
I grab them tightly and throw furious looks
To see if it will be like the butterfly effect
Things that are very noticeable
Like my attitude every time you cross my mind
And two other stories that confirm that you win
I don't want to keep playing, so let the bell ring
It says that when someone is missing
There's an air that's left over
That's where sighs are born
I hope for a sign
And I'll keep playing until you tell me
Stop it and let's cross pinkies

Even though you're not here, I feel like a child
Playing that you give and take away your affection
In case you didn't notice, this is hurting me
And I feel like you enjoy it, and that seems strange to me
Because
I remember that once you told me you would never do it
And it happened
And if it was because of time
Tomorrow I'll call you again to ask for forgiveness
And I hope you explain to me what we're playing