Quando Eu Crescer

I still fear the dark
I have a pure, insecure heart
On the fence, never thought about the future, never worked hard
Some say I'm immature
For some time I've been searching, but until today I haven't found the penny
Just the hole!

And on this dark path I live in trouble, I swear, it's my choice
I like loneliness, that's why I don't blend in
God, why did I have to be so stupid?
First the tough guy, now in life: A punch

Do you know what I want to be when I grow up?
I want to be a child when I grow up
I want the grades to be worthless and the coins to be edible

Do you know what I want to be when I grow up?
I want to be a child when I grow up
To hide under my blanket and pray for tomorrow to forget me

I packed my frustration in a suitcase and went
Investing my life in this loves-me-not
I don't even remember where I left my dreams
If it was at work or in some random bar

I made my legacy my own mirror
Honor my failure by being like me
Son, don't be fooled by these fantasies, or it will be your end

Now I see life with adult eyes, new insults
I beg the shadows, live in a cube, create chaos, cry
I pay a bunch of insurances and live insecure about who I am

My fear is that the world discovers my misery
I know, I hide behind facades that don't represent my truth
But peace means nothing in the face of opinion
The envies will ground me
You decide where I go
The idea was never to be truly happy, just to make it seem like I am

Do you know what I want to be when I grow up?
I want to be a child when I grow up
I want the grades to be worthless and the coins to be edible

Do you know what I want to be when I grow up?
I want to be a child when I grow up
To hide under my blanket and pray for tomorrow to forget me

I remember the child I once was
The wisdom I've lost
Today I wander drunk through the cold nights
I matured until I rotted
I deceive myself with fake smiles
But every day it's harder to believe
Since the time I wondered: And when I grow up?