Same Blue

In the morning when I can’t sort out my feelings
I stuffed the mess into my bag
I still can’t be the me in front of you
Without being able to say the words I want to share

Trying to lay it all out on a lonely night
My chest felt tight, it was unbearable
The feelings I have for you, the love I feel for you
Were just too overwhelming

In those days that felt so close yet so far
I got dizzy from the ups and downs
This weight that kept growing, colored by
The pain in my heart, I didn’t want to let go
Yet I found myself shouting that out

In spring, I saw you
Caught up in the summer vibes
My heart swelled with blue, opposite the changing city
In the autumn sky, mixed with snow
It all suited you so well
I’m in love, running through this busy world with no time to look away
In the season that is you

Trying to lessen what I lack
But straining only makes it worse, adding more
I guess I’m not the me who loves you
I don’t even have the right to want to match up

All the things I wanted to say, prepared so well
Were interrupted by different versions of myself
Shaking and tangled in my bag, swelling even more
The feelings I hid, unable to even leave a scar
On the day I chose to let them overflow, I want to deliver them
Straight to your heart

In spring, I saw you
Caught up in the summer vibes
My heart swelled with blue, opposite the changing city
In the autumn sky, mixed with snow
It all suited you so well
I’m in love, running through this busy world with no time to look away
Carrying a big, immature heart, cloudy yet clear

I want to be out of breath again tomorrow
In this dizzying world where you are
In the season that is you