Слёзы Аиши (First Day Out)

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Turn it up, uh, uh, yeah, yeah
Turn it up, ah-ah-ah
Yeah, yeah

A white dude's talking big for cash — I don't believe him (No): I betrayed love myself
I thought music explained everything, but now I can't find the words
I’m inhaling only poison: I’ve got dirty blood
If it weren't for my homie in the studio, I’d be crying right now, but I can't show the pain

Again (Pfft, again), this ain't my first time
Once more alone in my own apartment
So you and I won't become parents
Just yesterday we were family, today we're strangers (How?)
How do I ignore thoughts of leaving this life? (How?)
I need you on the album cover, or else all the songs lost their meaning, (A)

I stopped giving a damn about rhymes
I feel like this is my rock bottom: I crashed on the reefs
Weak, like Aisha's tears, ah, you shouldn't have trusted Grisha
I never let anyone get too close (Yeah): now I'm just mad at myself
Hey, I'm feeling fucked right now (Uh), maybe someone will lick it off, yeah?
Fuckboy, throw me some sad tracks: maybe I’ll finally get a feature
The way I lied with musical terms, lip sync
I was slippery with you, sticky with them
I'm ashamed in front of Olesya, please forgive me
I really don't know how to be happy
I destroy shit, I ain't even kidding
When my heart's broken, your fucking favorite lyrics pour out of me (Pour)
This is pfft self-reflection
Inside I'm dead — the strongest in front of the crowd
Don't give a damn about drip, that's why I'm the most stylish
This song's got wisdom, just like Klinin's, pfft
I speak lyrics, I speak the truth
I lost Kris, bro lost Inst Rina
I speak dirty truth sincerely
It's hard being alone with my thoughts
Plus they’re getting more suicidal
I suddenly dropped down vertically
The contract will drip quarterly
Ha, I swear, this song will drip quarterly (Yeah)
I don't make small mistakes, bitch, I only make fatal ones
The most real in songs, but in the charts, just basic shit
Choosing me was a mistake from the start
To drink away like a new beginning, but

Baby's telling me she loves me, but I don't believe her (No): pfft, I betrayed love myself
I thought music explained everything, but now I can't find the words
I’m inhaling only poison (Pfft): I’ve got dirty blood
If it weren't for my homie in the studio, I’d be crying right now, but I can't show the pain (Again, can't show the tears)

This ain't my first time
Once more alone in my own apartment
So you and I won't become parents
Just yesterday we were family, today we're strangers (How?)
How do I ignore thoughts of leaving this life?
I need you on the album cover, or else all the songs lost their meaning.