Culpable

On the verge of giving up
And leaving everything behind
You give me hope, oh

My heart desires you
But my flesh pulls me away
I'm a guilty one causing the problem
But it's you who fills my void

That I'm a sinner, I know
I accept that I've failed you a thousand times
But here I am
In repentance
Seeking you once again

That I'm a sinner, I know
I accept that I've failed you a thousand times
But here I am in repentance
Seeking you once again

Forgive me for bothering you again
You know that deep down, I just want to learn to love you
That my intentions haven't been to fail you
But my decisions have only managed to push me away little by little
That I can give more than I do, I know that
I only remember those moments when I
Rested in your arms and even though no one understands me
They judge me and don't comprehend me
You are the flame inside me and the fire that ignites me
And I confess that I don't want to be a burden to you
Because I'm afraid of falling and turning my back on you
I don't know how to be faithful to you and your coming is near
For your powerful word is what backs it up
Thank you for tolerating me but teach me to deny myself
To all my desires and what could push me away
Give me strength to bear my cross
Illuminate my path, be the light of my life

And I have nothing, only you remain even if I fail you
And when I was emptier than ever
I heard your voice calling me

And I have nothing, only you remain
Even if I failed you and when I was emptier than ever
I heard your voice calling me

That I'm a sinner, I know
I accept that I've failed you a thousand times
But here I am in repentance
Seeking you once again

That I'm a sinner, I know
I accept that I've failed you a thousand times
But here I am in repentance
Seeking you once again

Train me and teach me to live according to your word
Speak to me and teach me to ask
Shape me even if pain makes me want to give up
Even if my own world and heart want to destroy me
And I just want you to be my strength to
Stand in moments of sadness
So that your truth lives in me with all certainty
And to contemplate your love, your peace, and all your greatness
Take away the desire of the flesh that consumes me
I want to touch your heart with songs and perfume
Lift me from the dust and breathe life into me
Do what you want with me, I want to be for you
May it not be for my benefit, help me understand your sacrifice
That your love is real from the beginning
That you parted the seas and it wasn't fictional
That truly your presence is addictive for those who seek it
And if I fall, may guilt not overwhelm me
And may I find you in the moments I call upon you
Far from perfect, yes, and I may make mistakes
But I want to live for you until my time comes

Lord, I come to ask for forgiveness
I know I'm not perfect and I've made mistakes
But I want to reconcile with you
I ask you to write my name in the book of life
So it's never erased and remains forever
I ask you, Jesus, to guide me on the right path
And may nothing and no one separate me from you
Father, I ask this in the name of Jesus

Amen