De Repente
Patricio Manns
Suddenly
(bolero)
Suddenly I found myself caught in the loom that enveloped me.
I couldn't resist the urge to know what you were doing.
It's not that you were the absolute property of my affection,
But jealousy illuminated my pain like that of a child.
Suddenly I understood that I loved you too much,
That life is just that unfortunate moment
Where nothing separates us from a desperate love,
And doubt shakes us with tormented eagerness.
Suddenly I found myself alone in front of the mirror, face to face,
And I told myself that doubting makes us indifferent.
I don't curse the moments I lived alone with you,
Although I believe I should have only been a witness to your soul.
Suddenly I realized that life is dense and strong,
That suddenly the ignorance of forgetfulness assaults us,
And we are moved by the unfruitful solitude of what has been lived.
And we lack the harsh experience of death.
