Me Presento

I spend a lot of time alone
And I think more than I should
I'm pretty stubborn
And I don’t take advice
I’m scared of being loved
I’ve been running from it for a while
I talk more than I should
And I’m never in my place

Crowded places overwhelm me
Though they think I’m super social
I give myself too quickly
And I’m still learning to hold back
I struggle to look you in the eye
In case you want to see more
I’m scared of being so transparent
And you not letting me in at all

'Cause I don’t want butterflies, I don’t want anxiety
I want a sweet, slow love, the kind from before, the real kind
And I don’t want the sky anymore, I don’t want to fly
It’s been a while since I preferred calm over intensity

And the rock and roll girl
Is good for so much more
It’s my fault for always falling
For such superficial people
I live between black and white
You can’t put me in a box
And though my soul is like the wind
I’m still searching for a home

It bothers me that they think I’m different
'Cause I struggle to process
I pretend to be less smart
Just to not make waves
I find it hard to look you in the eye
And worry you won’t like what’s beyond
I’m scared of being so transparent
And you not letting me in at all

'Cause I don’t want butterflies, I don’t want anxiety
I want a sweet, slow love, the kind from before, the real kind
And I don’t want the sky anymore, I don’t want to fly
It’s been a while since I preferred calm over intensity

And if you don’t like what’s here
And if you don’t like what you see
Don’t try to change me
'Cause this is how I feel good
Come in or leave without messing up
What I have, I’ve already arranged
Don’t weigh me down, set me free
Stop with the games, just love me

'Cause I don’t want butterflies, I don’t want anxiety
I want a sweet, slow love, the kind from before, the real kind.