Supervivencia

I have the feeling of living the same thing every morning
A force I don't understand pulls me against my bed
I'm not that old either
But I feel like a tired old man who is not excited about anything
Someone teach me how to stop

She is undoubtedly the best and I end up giving her a bad face
Behind me, there's a wall
In front, a sword

You leave and all my desires to live go away
And who will want to stay here
If I am the failure

Why did I just yell at you
If I am so in love?
Why is the best part of my day seeing myself lying down?
Why doesn't my mind shut up
When I do?

I ask you please to come back from my past
Let all the colors that left come back
Why was I alive? Do you remember?
When I came out sweating from the study, so happy with the result
And this?

I tell it for survival
Because I know if I don't let it out
It would get stuck
It's hard for me to cry in real life
I record this song to lighten the load, it's too much
Because if I don't let it out, I swallow it
And if I swallow it, I pay with the people I love

Why does life set the price so high
And it follows you until you get distracted to steal your wallet?
I don't know what I want
And I start to think if it makes sense to write this song out of fear
Because I don't know what I want and that's the problem, I confess
Life is waiting and I don't know what I'm waiting for

I only know I want someone and she loves me
Who gives me the mental peace my mentality requires
But life always knows how to hit where it hurts
With so many stops and so many trains
Happy as a child

Trapped as an adult in the prison I wish I had never been interested in
If I met my 20-year-old self
I'm sure he would ask me
What has happened?
What has happened?