La Primera Vez (feat. Gema)

I'm going to tell you
What I felt in this song
It was the first time
That someone broke my heart
And I didn't believe it
Or maybe I didn't want to
While every tear fell
I still didn't understand the reason
If there was one
Denial was the defense mechanism I had
When I got up, I assumed
That they could bring me down from the clouds with a slap
Everything was so sudden, that I couldn't even ask
If it was because of her, or my fault
That I had to pay

In the end I knew the truth
It was the last thing I expected
Behind my back was a friend I trusted
The first time I was betrayed
To top it off, they denied it
As if I were an idiot
I felt the defeat in me
And a pain that didn't end

I was broken, I felt empty, lifeless
I knew that no one in the world
Would ever love her like I did
Emotional emptiness you feel inside
It knots up
Mind and heart
Are shown naked for the first time

I wanted to be everything for you
I lost, I forgot about myself
I gave in, and let myself go
I felt it until I woke up

I prayed over and over again
I shouted that it would turn out fine
And time passed afterwards
Just a memory of yesterday

That's when you think
That she no longer deserves you
You convince yourself while inside
Unknowingly, hatred grows
You continue with your life
Pretending everything is fine
Looking for another person to fill that void
And thus be able to make her jealous too

I did it unconsciously
Although it worked, she came back
And I swear it hurt me
But then it was me who rejected her
I had already gone through the worst
And you didn't care, don't mess with me
That you come back now acting
Like nothing happened

You cry, now you regret, don't you?
You come as a victim, telling me that
I was the best thing that happened to you
Empty words at best
You left with another when you had me
You just had to tell the truth
And breaking up wouldn't have left that wound

It was difficult for me
After so much time
I don't regret it
But the little trust
Was blown away by the wind
I didn't know what would happen
I had to reflect
Although this wouldn't be fixed
With a simple sorry

I wanted to be everything for you
I lost, I forgot about myself
I gave in, and let myself go
I felt it until I woke up

I prayed over and over again
I shouted that it would turn out fine
And time passed afterwards
Just a memory of yesterday

And you can imagine
In the end, together again
Although this time I couldn't trust
I knew it wouldn't end well
It was all resentment
I would throw it in her face whenever I could
Every argument for nothing
Or for any stupidity

I thought it would be forever
And you see
The first time was a blow too strong
Don't you think?
I forgave you even though I'll never forget what you did to me
And lucky
That what I did forget was loving you

I went from helplessness to indifference
Although I healed after each betrayal
The disappointment will always remain inside
Tired of so many lies in fairy tales
With clipped wings
Forever fertilized with suffering

And I learned from every mistake
Although back then I was just a kid
Everything happens for a reason
And I found mine
Maybe it was a whim of fate
That separated us
Because now I have by my side
Something real
It's called Love

I wanted to be everything for you
I lost, I forgot about myself
I gave in, and let myself go
I felt it until I woke up

I prayed over and over again
I shouted that it would turn out fine
And time passed afterwards
Just a memory of yesterday