Luca Era Gay

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Luca Was Gay

Luca was gay and now he's with her
Luca speaks with his heart in his hand
Luca says I'm a different man,

Luca says: before telling about my sexual change
I wanted to clarify that if I believe in God, I don't recognize myself
in the thoughts of the man who is divided on this subject,
I didn't go to psychologists, psychiatrists, priests, or scientists
I went into my past, I dug and I understood many things about myself
my mother loved me too much
a love that became an obsession full of
her convictions and I couldn't breathe for her attention
my father didn't make decisions and I could never talk to him
he was out all day for work
I had the impression that it wasn't too real
mom actually asked for separation when I was 12
I didn't understand well
my father said it was the right solution and soon started drinking
mom always spoke badly of dad, she told me "never get married for God's sake"
she was jealous and possessive of my friends
and my identity was increasingly confused

Luca was gay and now he's with her
Luca speaks with his heart in his hand
Luca says I'm a different man
Luca was gay and now he's with her
Luca speaks with his heart in his hand
Luca says I'm a different man

I'm a different man but at that moment I was looking for answers
I was ashamed and I looked for them in secret
there were those who told me "it's natural"
I studied Freud, didn't think the same
then came maturity
but I didn't know what happiness was
a grown man made my heart tremble
and that's where I discovered I was homosexual
with him, no inhibitions, there was courtship
and I thought it was love, yes
with him, I could be myself
then it seemed like a competition of who did sex better
and I felt guilty sooner or later
they catch him but if the evidence disappears, then they acquit him
I looked in men for who was my father
I went with men to not betray my mother

Luca says: for 4 years I was with a man between love and deceit
we often betrayed each other
I was still looking for my truth
that great love for eternity
then at a party among many people I met her
who had nothing to do with it
she listened to me, she undressed me, she understood me
I just remember that the next day I missed her
this is my story, only my story
no illness, no cure
dear dad, I forgave you even though you never came back here
mom, I think of you often, I love you
and sometimes I still see your reflection but now I'm a father
and I'm in love with the only woman I've ever loved