Spensieratezza

When I lose you, I realize your worth
And it’s like waiting for a train lying on the tracks
We’ve never been clear
Like the beers I drink, like the sky since you’ve been gone
Chase after freedom

With dreams bigger than your age
With your short hair
Like the days we live
Anxiety always comes back where it feels at home
And when it leaves, we wait for it
How far will I go, how many places will you see
When I think of you, who knows who you’ll be with

Maybe alone in bed, with a hole in your chest
Or maybe with someone else talking about their troubles
I’ll drink until I throw up one more time
And I’ll get chills when I hear this verse
And I’ll get chills if you talk about this story
You kept a blank page in your diary (a blank page)
Tonight there’s a party in a shithole
I saw you in the crowd, you seemed different

I wish I could go back to third grade
And talk about problems with carefree ease
With carefree ease
With carefree ease, you made me lose sleep and lose my mind
I wish I could talk about us with more carefree ease
I know you hate me, me writing these lines

Oh no, you won’t find me
I won’t find you-oo-oo-oo-oo, eh-eh
Sidewalks getting dirty
Benches that have been there for a while
Clothes don’t change
Time seems to always stand still
Hearts take the bus
But from the outside, people look the same inside
And the sky doesn’t seem that blue

From the crosswalks of a parking lot
We’re outside but out of our minds
If I get mad, you scream, "What are you doing?"
And tomorrow I know it’s your party
And I’ll be fine if you don’t invite me
Tonight there’s a party in a shithole

I saw you in the crowd, you seemed different
I wish I could go back to third grade
And talk about problems with carefree ease
With carefree ease
With carefree ease, you made me lose sleep and lose my mind
I wish I could talk about us with more carefree ease