Lo Siento Mamá

Sorry, mom, but I had to let it go
I

Sorry, mom, if I lie to you now
But I just can't tell the truth
Take care of dad, he's messed up now
Even if he gets mad and can't take it anymore

He has a bad temper, but I know he loves you
He's never seen a love so real
And don't worry, even though I'm broken
I move forward and never backward

Grandpa left and I swear I loved him
The other one too, another stab
A tear rolled down our damn faces
I wish to be that strong tomorrow

I've done bad things, mommy, I know
I've resorted to stealing to eat
I live in a store, can't afford rent
I went after one and had to run

But don't worry, my queen, never cry
Better times will come tomorrow
I swear I won't leave this shit
Until my songs feed us

And I pray to God even though I don't know if he exists
I swear sometimes I get sad
Life has left me scars
That can't be erased with an eraser

My brother died and I won't forget
Even though I've tried, I won't deny
I got hooked on drugs and I know it's no excuse
But you give up everything to not feel bad

If I left home it was so that tomorrow
I come back to you and we can have dinner
Give you a big kiss and dad a hug
And play a record in the living room with Fran

I know it's selfish, but it's the truth
Sometimes the bad things make you not feel bad
I couldn't sleep, blamed it on anxiety
And all I had was lorazepam

I was admitted to the hospital
Came back home and didn't tell you anything
I didn't want to lie, or worry you
You had enough problems already

I spent six months with depression
Skipped class, didn't see the sun
Slept in the store to avoid everyone
Thanks to Quique who helped me

And I don't want to mention that girl
I got lost in her eyes, found myself in her lap
I know I was crazy, but so was she
And a crazy person can't help another crazy

I know I hurt you and it was for the best
One day of pain and days of sadness
Some friend committed suicide
Some friend was taken by cancer

The cursed neighborhood since we were kids
Start with money and then comes the coke
Juvenile detention center for the little ones
For those who didn't learn, they turn five and some

For Brayan, crazy, also for Fer
There's nothing left, come on, behave
Life is too damn beautiful
To live it waiting for a pack of Wes

Finally, the pills ran out
I learned to be alone, to live on my own
See, mom? It's all over
Your little boy has grown up

Sorry, mom, if I lie to you now
But I just can't tell the truth
Take care of dad, he's messed up now
Even if he gets mad and can't take it anymore

He has a bad temper, but I know he loves you
He's never seen a love so real
And don't worry, even though I'm broken
I move forward and never backward
No, I
I move forward and never backward
I
Even though I'm broken
I move forward and never backward
Ah

Had to let it go, mom, I-ah (I move forward and never backward)
Reality