Yo Te Elegí

After thirty they told me I could no longer be a mother
And if I didn't want to, they made me feel guilty
As if it were an obligation
As if motherhood were the only option

I spent many years enjoying being alone
With my house on my back like a snail
Traveling with my dreams in a suitcase
Achieving my goals, singing poems
And you arrived at the right moment
When you announced yourself, I had already wished for you
And in the use of my freedom, I chose you to walk this life together

I chose you, love
I shouted your name to the universe
You chose me to make your home in my body

I chose you and you chose me
I shouted your name to the universe
You chose me to make your home in my body

I'm not going to deny that I was afraid
Is this what I want?
Am I a bad feminist?
Can you be a mom and an artist?
And the illusion grew with my belly
Fears I didn't know became present
Waiting for each ultrasound to see you
Preparing the nest to have you
And having you in my arms was as I had hoped
Sleepless nights, a thousand pains
And an intimacy that slowly began to build

I chose you, love
I shouted your name to the universe
You chose me to make your home in my body

I chose you and you chose me
I shouted your name to the universe
You chose me to make your home in my body

Now I have new scars and with so many changes, sometimes I feel sad
My body changed, my soul changed
Sometimes I cry to find calm
And in the silence of the early morning
In the midst of fatigue, I see your gaze
You look at me with love while you feed from me
And I know I had never been so happy
You see me as perfect as I am
And I want to love myself as I love you
Thank you for giving me the opportunity to be born again

I chose you, love
I shouted your name to the universe
You chose me to make your home in my body

I chose you and you chose me
I shouted your name to the universe
You chose me to make your home in my body

I chose you, love
I shouted your name to the universe
You chose me to make your home in my body

I chose you