C.X.T (Club Xavalas Tristes)

I'm so, so scared that the songs won't reach their shores
That one day I won't understand why I'm here
I won't know how to listen anymore
There are so many things, I hop in the van

I forget there's people, tinted windows
I smile at my own reflection, I feel like Tarzan
Today I remembered the day someone told me you don't know, you can't

The times table, if you don't study it, you're gonna fail
I still don't know what nine times eight is
Dear teacher, I'm sorry, I've grown up now
But at least God taught me how to rhyme

I don't know where I'm going
I've created a big club
Called sad girls
And it's full of Paulas and Laias and Annas
And bitches and empresses

I have an app that tracks my menstrual cycles
My laughs, my cries, my I can't do this anymore
My I'm useless, my I'm a badass
I have a scar on my belly from when they finally took my baby out

A hundred hours of labor
And there are days I still struggle not to cry
I have a distant memory of my first boyfriend
And I envy the past, those first times

They're always perfect when you look back
I live in fear of the moment when all this explodes
And my world speeds up to two hundred miles an hour
And I can't find the meaning and I want to crash

I don't know where I'm going
I've created a big club
Called sad girls
And it's full of Paulas and Laias and Annas
And bitches and empresses

I don't know where I'm going
I've created a big club
Called sad girls
And it's full of Paulas and Laias and Annas
And bitches and empresses