Me Kiero Largar :(

I am what I am, not what they want me to be
But do I love being who I am or do I really want to be loved?
I don't know if I want to shoot myself
Or avoid cutting myself to not harm myself

Ma, ah-ah, I don't want to scare you anymore
I will miss my parents, but I want to leave
I feel like I'm feeling
I don't know if it's bad or good
I cry if it's raining

Because then my tears can't be seen
Today I'm smiling
And I'm dying inside
I never focus

Because not knowing consumes me
Leave from here if my heart hurts (from here)
I'm not the same out there as in my room
I have a thousand problems that only I know
And it will continue to be because I have no courage

The rain on my face and I only think
How hard it is for me to stay awake
Last night I cried until I ran out of tears
And I don't even understand why this happens

I walk at night on the avenue
Hoping that some car takes my life
Or would it be braver to stay and live it?
Although surrendering to live is also bravery

My house doesn't feel like a home
Although the rain and storm heal me
I feel safer when I walk
Alone on the street, in the darkness

I am what I am, not what they want me to be
But do I love being who I am or do I really want to be loved?
I don't know if I want to shoot myself
Or avoid cutting myself to not harm myself

Ma, ah-ah, I don't want to scare you anymore
I will miss my parents, but I want to leave
The Ritorukai
I'm sad, ma (uh-uh, uh-uh-uh, uh-uh)
I'm sad, oh, ma (uh)
Brujo
And it's the Rite (ah-ah, ah-ah)