Me Hace Daño Amarte

Searching for you doesn't mean I want to be with you
Loving you doesn't mean: You here with me
Desiring you doesn't mean I want to touch you
I confess that if someone else touches you, it's not the same for me

And I get upset with myself, because yesterday I dreamt of you
Because if I see your face, my senses get stirred
Because I reply to your texts and the next day I regret it
Because one day I can't stand it and the next I come back and write to you

I don't want you with me but I want you to be close to me
I don't want you with me but I want you to be happy
I don't want you with me but I want you to lack nothing
You hurt me, hurt me a lot and I can't love you anymore
Loving you hurts me

A contradiction