Sabotage

Ryokuoushoku Shakai's song 'Sabotage' delves into the complex emotions of self-doubt, self-discovery, and the desire for authenticity. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of someone who feels out of sync with their surroundings, as if they are the only one sabotaging their own progress. This sense of isolation is captured in the lines 'まるでわたしだけがサボタージュ' (It feels like I'm the only one sabotaging). The protagonist grapples with the bad habits that cling to them, making them question their choices and the things they once cherished.

The song takes a turn towards introspection and empowerment as the protagonist realizes that they want to love rather than be loved. This shift in perspective is a significant moment of self-awareness, as they ponder, 'あいされるよりあいしたいとさえおもう' (I even think I'd rather love than be loved). This realization is accompanied by a sense of urgency to not disappear without leaving a mark, to carve out their own identity and ensure they don't fade away unnoticed.

As the song progresses, the protagonist acknowledges their past mistakes but chooses to move forward with determination. They find fragments of their true self while being overtaken by others, symbolizing the journey of self-discovery amidst external pressures. The lyrics 'おいかけてるいまがたのしいんだっておもえたの' (I realized that chasing the present is fun) highlight the joy found in pursuing one's passions and living authentically. By the end of the song, the protagonist embraces their identity with pride, even if only a little, as they declare, 'これがわたしだとすこしだけならいまはむねをはっていえるの' (If only a little, I can now say with pride that this is me). 'Sabotage' is a powerful anthem of self-acceptance and the ongoing journey to find and embrace one's true self.