Shout Baby

A different scent of hair than usual
Frustratingly being made to dance
Loosening mouth
Gently sinking into the scarf

Since when have I been able to endure like this?
Even though I was a crybaby since childhood
And was made fun of

Keep it a secret (a secret)
Such cruel words
The shouting voice becomes hazy
Distant in the supposedly ordinary future

It's clear even without asking anyone
It won't reach that person
Where should I go?
Not knowing, just getting closer

The longing that burns my chest
Doesn't disappear enough to erase the daily anxiety
I want to change

Because I tend to put off everything
I, who am like that
Just wanted to protect even a slight connection

If I had kept it a secret (if I had)
It's like something that doesn't exist
There are no insignificant memories
I understand

By the time morning comes
I only see the serious side
Because that's all there was
Confused by the first time

That person who tightens my chest
To erase the boring time
I didn't want to know such things
I wish I had done that at that time
I wanted to be arrogant

Feeling like doing something wrong
I felt pathetic
But everything was a first
And I still wanted to believe

It's clear even without asking anyone
That person won't give me happiness

But still, what that person gave me
Was not nothing
The sneaky lies that erase the daily anxiety
Don't disappear happily
I want to change