Preciso Me Encontrar

Locked in the room, quiet and silent
Afraid of this damn future of mine
Abandoned by my self-esteem
My mind is a mess, I feel insecure
I know it's early, but my head can only think, damn
About all this, and this hole I'm sinking into getting deeper every passing day

Things are happening, my mind is getting lost
Slowly dying, and I want to find myself
And I remember all this, things from another world
That I've been questioning and making my mind think

What will be my reason?
Why am I smiling?
Why am I afraid to try to continue?

My reason is to be happy
My smile is my root
And why I'm afraid I can't explain

Get out of my life, this trap is mine
I'm full of problems and I don't want to blame you
Lie, come back to me
I just want to see you happy
I'm confused and lost, trying to find myself
I got lost in your gaze, I found shelter in your smile
Love, come stay with me
Watching time pass by
Even if I question myself: What will paradise be like?
I don't care anymore if you're not there
I really caught myself thinking a lot about all this
Evil and absurdities, I try to let go
I find relief in listening, sometimes even rhyming
Trying, making an effort, to see this turn into... A smile
Smiles that I showed, that almost always lied
My own demons laughed when I tried to help
I drowned in the mud, slowly got up
I haven't made it yet, but my time will come
I don't believe much in myself, no
But I know I do my work with heart
After all, I'm lost in this illusion
I don't know if they praise me out of pity
Or if I'm really good

Shyness has been hindering me, lack of self-esteem leaves me stoned
Depression sometimes makes me very worried
And anxiety devours me every night in this case

And things are happening, my mind is getting lost
Slowly dying, and I want to find myself
And I remember all this, things from another world
That I've been questioning and making my mind think

What will be my reason?
Why am I smiling?
Why am I afraid to try to continue?

My reason is to be happy
My smile is my root
And why I'm afraid I can't explain

Get out of my life, this trap is mine
I'm full of problems and I don't want to blame you
Lie, come back to me
I just want to see you happy
I'm confused and lost, trying to find myself

And things are happening, my mind is getting lost
Slowly dying, and I want to find myself
And I remember all this, things from another world
That I've been questioning and making my mind think

What will be my reason?
Why am I smiling?
Why am I afraid to try to continue?

My reason is to be happy
My smile is my root
And why I'm afraid I can't explain