Estoy Peor

Look cousin, I'm not here to love you
I'm 28 and tired of the same old story
Sometimes I write lyrics that I don't even believe
Neither are you my Juliet nor am I Romeo

I think you crossed the line and didn't even ask for apologies
And that's something only someone who feels no guilt does
And that's something only someone who only thinks of themselves does
Define your person with the word selfishness

I lived in fear of the years passing by
Let's end it and look at each other like strangers
Like two people who never loved each other
And weren't happy because they didn't want to be

I'm locked up crying in the room
Because nothing separates me from these mama la vita
Because you don't show your face and that shit irritates me
Because she doesn't speak and I have a thorn here

And I have the feeling that she avoids me all the time
And my heart races with pressure
It beats a thousand times and a voice resurrects
It tells me: Take two diazepams and it will go away

I'm thinking about how to be again
I've fallen so many times that I know how to land on my feet
I don't know if it was you or me who got used to it
I burned your passionate memories in a fire

And now I'm here, drugged, crying
Thinking about how weak I've been
Th-thinking about how random I've been
Even if I die for you, I'll be hating you for life

I'm buying myself a bottle
I'm going to drink it in her name
Some time has passed and she forgot me
The more time passes, the worse I am

I'm worse buying myself a bottle
I'm going to drink it in her name
Some time has passed and she forgot me
The more time passes, the worse I am

What a high
Drugged like a junkie, I'm sitting in the living room
With the TV on but I've turned off the sound
With my brain turned off so I don't hear that voice

That voice that's driving me crazy
Vomiting the bits of a broken little heart
Breaking into bits all our photos
So I forget that there was once an us

The roots of this tree fell
And summer never gives the rains that January does
Love never gives the power that money does
And money will never buy something so sincere

Let that be clear to you
I'm a lost sailboat looking for the lighthouse
I'm a human being lost looking for the mistake
Because I'm positive and I'm already freaking out at the slightest thing

I'm buying myself a bottle
I'm going to drink it in her name
Some time has passed and she forgot me
The more time passes, the worse I am

I'm buying myself a bottle
I'm going to drink it in her name
Some time has passed and she forgot me
The more time passes, the worse I am