Voces En Mi Interior (feat. Porta)

-Do it...
-Leave me alone
-Do it
-I haven't done anything, why do you mess with me? Leave me alone
-Let's go!

Dear imaginary friend, they did it again today
My classmates beat me up
And I don't understand, I didn't do anything, damn
They just say I'm soft and weird
I love music, manga, the computer
And I don't really like playing soccer, so what?
I tried it once to not be alone during recess
And they made me be the goalie all the time
I don't know how it feels to score a goal
And have your friends hug you like a winner
Not wanting to play anymore is another reason
Beaten up! For not finishing a game
I lost the desire to fit in
Now I just want to see them as little as possible, I'm late to class
My teachers are fed up, they say I've changed
What do they know? They called my parents
I always participated when teachers asked
And I can pass without studying at all
But I don't raise my hand anymore, I'm scared
I fear the slap from behind and from the side
And I haven't talked to anyone in a while, I'm not a suicidal
Last time, ten of them waited for me after school
Dad calls me a troublemaker
Impotence and pain will nullify me, they'll make a tragic cocktail

I can't handle this pressure
You don't have to handle it!
I want to end it all
Then end it sooner!
I hear voices inside me screaming:
Do it, do it, do it
Let's go, let's go

I'm sorry, your parents won't understand your suffering
Sitting at a desk, time will pass slower
I understand you, and maybe I can help you
I swear I'll end it all if you let me advise you
Fear makes you human
No one does anything, you feel like taking justice into your own hands
And it all starts in the hallways
You'll walk with your head down and your hands in your pockets
You know the other kids will marginalize you, they want to see you cry
They'll lock you in the basement or the attic, during recess
All because you're not like everyone else
What makes you unique here also makes you lonely
And yes, the teachers only make things worse
A snitch is another punch in the back
And everything you do will just be another reason
To be able to attack the target once again
That is you, because that's how they satisfy themselves
They laugh, but it's not funny to you
It's not that you're inferior, but fear blinds you
And the bully's fear is feeling inferior and that's why he hits you
Do you want to cut your veins? Running away only delays the problems
Look at yourself, damn, you're starting to look pathetic
Every day you have new bruises from those little bullies
You have to grow a pair

I can't handle this pressure
You don't have to handle it!
I want to end it all
Then end it sooner!
I hear voices inside me screaming:
Do it, do it, do it... Let's go, let's go

Follow your ideals and don't be a coward
Don't give up, let your effort not be in vain
This time I know luck is not on your side
As you can see, sometimes strength overcomes skill
Hiding won't help, fight
You have to be strong, listen to the voice behind this hood
Every group has an assigned leader
Earning respect is complicated and it's your turn
The solution is to face the situation

I'm not saying it's going to be easy, especially with so much pressure
What would others do if they were in your place?
They wouldn't put up with what you have to put up with
They've disturbed your innocence
Do you know what can happen when patience runs out?
You have to do something now, I know you're tired
Truth be told, I think you've endured too much
Get revenge, take note of every name
Give it back to them, show me you're a man
I know the resentment runs through your veins, it has poisoned you
Wasn't this what they wanted? Who would have thought

I can't handle this pressure
You don't have to handle it!
I want to end it all
Then end it sooner!
I hear voices inside me screaming:
Do it, do it, do it... Let's go, let's go

I told myself a thousand times: Don't do it, they're good kids
But they pushed me to the edge
I reached that point of no return
Where everything doesn't matter and you feel anger towards your surroundings
That day I arrived early at school, and in the line to enter
Those bastards without mercy were there
I remember their mouths uttering a word: Sissy
And the impact on my body of their big hands
As usual, no one did anything
Some laughed, others looked away
I swallowed hard from the ground, resigned

Because I knew that same day everything would be over
Hit me more, I'm not going to cry
I have no tears left, just a sick laugh
You're going to die and the last thing you'll hear
Is the teacher writing on the blackboard with chalk
In my backpack, a can of gasoline
And in my veins a lot of pain and adrenaline
I entered the bathroom bruised
And waited for everyone to be in class and the hallway clear
While the janitor drank coffee
I stole the keys to the classrooms from his office
I went up to mine on the fourth floor
And quietly closed a door from the outside, yes

I opened the other one suddenly and poured the fuel
Surprise! They didn't have time to react
I lit a match, locked them in, and started walking
I can remember the screams, an irresistible symphony
The firefighters saved some lives
But many won't bother me again
The teacher, hysterical, fleeing from the flames
Jumped out the window, and hasn't walked since

Time has passed, I haven't returned to school
Nor home, but this place has its advantages
They don't mistreat me here, although it's all very cold
And they give me pills that make me calm
Sometimes I spend time imagining how to kill a nurse
And I have to control myself
I know that eventually they'll have to let me go
I regret it, I swear, who am I trying to fool?