Derrotado

I'm here counting
To myself what I was.
I will remember the times you ran after me.
I emptied my essence
In every verse I wrote
And I will pour out the anger and contempt..

I want to jump to forget,
Crash at the bottom of the sea,
I want to fly to dream that it's better this way.
I won't stop going crazy
Even if the ground shows its coldness. I abandoned myself and I won't
Breathe for you.

I got confused rowing in the battle of living.
I wasted the ammunition
In wars without suffering.
I executed poor innocents without reason
And sentenced the heart
To life imprisonment.

I want to jump to forget,
Crash at the bottom of the sea,
I want to fly to dream that it's better this way.
I won't stop going crazy
Even if the ground shows its coldness. I abandoned myself and I won't
Breathe for you.

Sometimes I feel fear
Looking at myself in the mirror
Hoping for the sanity
That I didn't have nor retain.
Now time becomes eternal,
It has stopped for moments,
The doubt... I will endure it.

I want to jump to forget,
Crash at the bottom of the sea,
I want to fly to dream that it's better this way.
I won't stop going crazy
Even if the ground shows its coldness. I abandoned myself and I won't
Breathe for you.