Boto En Falta Unha Ilusión

I'm missing an illusion
That transforms me into myself
That, unintentionally, I lost
Thinking that I was saving myself
I miss the one I loved
And that time I dreamed of
Being awake and thought
That I was feeding off of you.

I miss your voice
Your face and the joy
The devalued hours
And even your cowardice
And I can't remember
The knives and the lies
And the resentment doesn't settle
And you don't leave me.

Today there is no more pain
I don't cry out loud anymore
But there's fear of feeling
And not smiling again
And of waiting for you

Today there is no more pain
No blood is flowing
But there's fear of feeling
And not smiling again
And of waiting for you

The sadness has already left
Apathy colonizes me
I, who had pagan faith
In being a phoenix and flying
And with the strength of awakening
Embrace vitalism
I woke up in the same abyss
But it would have been better not to dream.

If I succumbed to my instincts
To kiss you again
If of all the crimes
I committed the one of returning
The fatigue and the suffering
I would endure resigned
Because I live condemned
To not be able to forget you.