A Solas (feat. Gema)

Hey, alone
Sometimes suddenly I feel like nobody understands me
That everything turns against me, everything overwhelms me
I pay with the people I love the most for what I notice without reason
So I don't even feel what I say
I walk sad, head down and serious, I don't need anything
Let me be alone for real
When I'm alone, I think about getting out of the way
I promise myself to smile but there's no remedy
Sometimes I can't get rid of this guilt
I try to keep fighting but sometimes I fail
It's so hard to wake up and see that nothing changes
That everything you do will only be a failure
Sometimes I look at everything I have and it's not enough
I'm afraid to keep moving forward, growing, suffering every day
For love and money
Because I know nothing lasts forever and everything wears out
I try to improve as a person every day, I talk to myself
And I tell myself, always react, I set too many goals in my life
But nothing changes, everything remains the same, nothing works
I absurdly wonder about things I don't understand
What is my place? Where am I going? What am I doing?
Years go by and I'm starting to understand
That the only thing that leaves and never comes back is time

My world doesn't turn and I struggle to feel
The Sun no longer shines, I don't know where to go
I don't know how to decide, my way of living
And in sighs alone, I would wait for my end
My world doesn't turn and I struggle to feel
The Sun no longer shines, I don't know where to go
Tears scratch me and I feel my soul empty
Voices scream at me that there is no way out

It makes me angry not being able to be as I want to be
See life in a way I never wanted to see it
Act differently, have a different opinion
Not do what I want for fear of losing
Grow, not realize, become something else
Completely different from what I promised
I said I would never do it, that I wouldn't even imagine it
One bad day I wake up and admit that I am like this
I hate Sundays, I don't like them at all
They are to remember the mistakes I made
My dreams leave, they stay in the clouds
Do you want advice? Whatever happens, never doubt
I hate this present moment, I sense it
It dawns as always, then it gets dark
Every Sunday reminds me of that kind of person
I've always dreamed of being and have never been able to be
I can't relieve myself, don't try to help me, I know I'm responsible
And I never stop blaming myself, I keep complicating things, I ask to be left alone
And if I could, I would ask for someone to come and find me
Another day without an answer, with nothing to heal me
There is less and less time and I keep asking myself
Sometimes I think I'm crazy and I need to express myself
This is the only way I have to explain myself

My world doesn't turn and I struggle to feel
The Sun no longer shines, I don't know where to go
I don't know how to decide, my way of living
And in sighs alone, I would wait for my end
My world doesn't turn and I struggle to feel
The Sun no longer shines, I don't know where to go
Tears scratch me and I feel my soul empty
Voices scream at me that there is no way out

It's very hard to continue like this and what's left for me?
Live dreaming? I don't think it's possible
I usually have birthdays without knowing what awaits me
Very little joy inside, too much sorrow outside
It doesn't work like this, it works by impressions
We are illusions, sensations, and emotions
I know I will spend my life tied to eternal sadness
But the rest of the people will think they are just songs
I want to leave here, jump and live, escape!
From this depression, stop suffering, move on from yesterday
Smile and that's it, keep walking without thinking about anything
And just flow, notice that for once I can be happy
See my family well, hear that it's not over
Wake up with excitement and the first thing I see
Every morning by my side is just their gaze
Make my brother happy, let him know what I have achieved
That the phrase in my chest I have never forgotten!
I want to live every dream that for once comes true!
Things go well and stop feeling guilty
Feel proud, happy, and alive
Let the sadness of sorrow feel what I have felt
Achieve every promise I made to myself one day
And say: It's over because I have already achieved it!

My world doesn't turn and I struggle to feel
The Sun no longer shines, I don't know where to go
I don't know how to decide, my way of living
And in sighs alone, I would wait for my end
My world doesn't turn and I struggle to feel
The Sun no longer shines, I don't know where to go
Tears scratch me and I feel my soul empty
Voices scream at me that there is no way out