¿Dónde Estás?

Who am I trying to fool?
I was born to be alone
I want a kiss, give it to me or I'll steal it
What are you going to offer me if I already had everything?

Fame, women, and gold, and no
I don't know where to start
I look at myself and ask, where are you going to end up?
I'm not very clear on where I'm going, I just know I must get there

What do you want from me?
Don't waste time looking at me like that
I'm not what you expect, I warn you
I'm not trying to please you and barely trying, and I know

That I will never learn
I am what I am, I carry it on my skin
I'm not going to change for you or anyone
Are you staying or leaving too?

I don't understand life, nor fear death
If there's someone up there, come down and tell me
I'm not a coward, nor a brave one
I value those who lose even if they at least try

I don't have money, I'm poor
I'm rich by your side
A hug is enough for me
If you feel lonely just remember my name

I'm tired of problems
Of making dinner for myself and talking to God
I'm waiting for an external answer
But there's no one here, by the way, listening to my voice
And another night alone remembering everything that once hurt

Watching TV with a stupid face
While I realize that I'm alone
I've looked for you everywhere but I never found you
I begged and pleaded and still didn't hear you
I feel like I'm dying and no one comes to see

Tell me, where are you?
And here I am still hurt, come on, going around in circles
To the same reason that makes me come back
I said I forgive but I don't forget
I'm not asking you to change, better leave
You weren't such a friend, you appreciated me so much

What do you want me to say? Why did I go through it?
If all that time I was by your side
It was because I trusted and I messed up
Sad, like rain in spring
You were the only thing that mattered to me
Pretend, as if you didn't know
You saw that in the end everything ends

And it's just as I expected
You never receive what you give
You fight, you break your face with everything and everyone

So that in the end there's nothing left
Now it doesn't matter what comes
I just fly towards the sky
My grandmother waiting for me

I could never tell her the things that hurt me
She left a long time ago, but she's watching over me
We all have an angel that protects us from the world
But also a demon that confuses us

We are sandcastles and no longer worth it
Building dreams that later sink alone
If I look out the window I see people passing by
They are like aimless shadows with a present

I want to make a living and earn what Messi earns
But in the end it's easier to be a criminal
Because I can't be a child, give me your hand, darling
Let's go to the park, today I just want to have you

Sometimes I want to write to you to tell you
But I erase it and it always remains pending
I know it's the same old thing
But it's always the same

Me against life being a prisoner of its abyss
Always between the doubt of silence and rhythm
On the cross like you, Jesus Christ
I've always looked at you but never seen you
I believe but I see that it's me who doesn't exist
Let me tell you what I feel right now
I'm tired of lies and false illusions!

Ah!
I wish the world would stop, man, I would get off
Here almost 27, a miserable man only talking about myself
Every dawn with the pillow I have a vis-a-vis
I dream but stop to pee
The night is a forest of memories
That hugs you without permission

Then the day is like a desert without you
I can't be the person I've been chasing for so many years
So now, let her chase me
I've looked for you everywhere but I never found you

I begged and pleaded and still didn't hear you
I feel like I'm dying and no one comes to see
Tell me, where are you?
And finally I understood, I saw beyond myself
And only then did I see myself
I caught my ghosts talking about me
And instead of killing them, I joined them
It's not so bad to be crazy
It's worse not to accept it and pretend to be happy

It's not so bad to get lost, it's worse to find yourself
And not know what has become of you
Yes, I know, that fear and faith
Are abstract things that make you fall
And I won't stop trying because of that
And not because you're not here, I'll stop believing
Nothing stops me
I'm the shadow of the devil and of God too
Life is a damn swing
We waste time looking for ourselves among people
Wanting to know who is who