Me Iré

Today I woke up and I don't know what to do
You left early and it still smells like coffee
She was lying on the couch looking at me
Biting the calcium bone I bought her yesterday
I started writing and didn't have breakfast
I have a half-written letter here that I didn't finish
I stopped to think about what I have and what I feel
And on the key of memory, there I collapsed
It's been a long time since I cried and I'm not okay
Neither the psychologist nor the doctor help me anymore
Only those who suffer know what it is
Today I don't want to say anything that isn't true
My head is so broken that it can't take it anymore
And my heart so black that it can't love
A tear escapes and rolls down my skin
The blame is only mine, not others

I will leave, where the sun doesn't see me
I will cry, this time, I swear I will return
Without fear

I have a woman I don't deserve
The job I dreamed of since I started
More money than I ever imagined earning
And a precious creature that I have seen grow
I have someone who loves me madly
And who doesn't know that loving me in my mind tortures me
I'm afraid of heights and a trauma that doesn't heal
A gaze as strong and brave as insecure
I have friends I don't call anymore
Everything around me is just loneliness
A mother I love and see little
And a niece who gives me what you can't imagine
I have fears and more fears that never go away
I want to get out of this cave, I want to breathe
But I feel like nothing can save me now
I want to take off this blindfold and start walking

I will leave, where the sun doesn't see me
I will cry, this time, I swear I will return
Without fear

The day ends, it's just another day
The TV in the background sounds in the living room
You arrived late and went to bed early
She was looking at me with compassion
I feel that the best option is to leave
The absence will hurt but you will be fine
My time is running out, it's getting late
Wherever I go, I won't forget you