Volver

I want to go back to yesterday even though I know I can't
Where life was easy and dreaming was just a game
Far from the noise and fame, the egos and fucking money
When I sang in the living room shouting my fears

I want to hug dad again, I know he's in heaven
Close my eyes and be silent, that's all I hope for
Feel the fire in my chest like before, not this damn ice
I want to go back to never love you again
If I love you again, I'll die

I look at the clock knowing it can't be
That everything I cared about died yesterday
And who cares how I feel?
This sadness is like a drug
I'm addicted to things I can't have

Life weighs on me and my mind crushes me
Time is running out, it goes so fast
My soul no longer prays, my smile is gone
Another day passes and death doesn't warn

Another night at home, no news from you
Having dinner leftovers, the same shirt
No kisses, sex, or caresses around here
I don't even feel the breeze

I have unresolved traumas inside
An account pending with the people I offended one day
More than one secret I never told anyone
A photo album of the times I came with you

I have a past I want to go back to
And this present I never understood
I have the damn future outside, waiting for me
And here I am wasting time wanting to go back, huh

Why go back? If going back to the past is falling back into the hole
Now that the pain I went through, I think I like it, if I miss it I long for it
Now that the damage made me the person I am, made me a warrior
If suffering is growing, I'll do it again, even if I have to start from scratch

(Return) I want to go back!
(Return) SHÉ
(Return)

Life bit me in the neck like Dracula
The pressure fell on me, I felt that weight on my shoulders
No one escapes the poison left by a hundred thousand tarantulas
I'm not afraid of wounds, they leave magical scars

I feel no compassion, sorrow, or pity
Although this mind punishes me with its whip
Looking back, thinking that going back would be the only
Way to heal, but going back wasn't the formula

Mom spent her years in a hospital
Fighting tirelessly against that damn disease
Every afternoon connected to that machine
And she came out on top alone, like a true warrior

Yes, I have her blood, and I have learned through her
That in life everything happens and you must continue
I'm not going to give sadness the pleasure
Of continuing to condemn my present with impunity

I've lived, I've suffered anxiety
I lost dad along the way
There's no silence in my head that can calm me
For love, I've risked everything, even my mental health

There's no psychologist or doctor who can help me
This sadness can't be deciphered, it's a fractal code
Pure crystal soul, my voice unafraid to jump
I was born to suffer, but suffering is the only thing that makes me shine

I'll embrace my traumas and fears with pride
Like a prisoner being tortured who comes back for more
The past is a mark that stays with us for life
That hides the way out and prevents us from moving forward

I'm addicted to a feeling that comes from within
And even though no one can see it, I know it's real
Let the pain keep hurting when it wants
My soul waits here, and if it doesn't come, I'll go find it

I won't go back
When the shadows want to hurt me, I'll be here
With the smile of someone who's not afraid to lose
Today I fly like a bird that's not afraid to fall to the ground
Because it knows the sky is its own

I won't go back
When the shadows want to hurt me, I'll be here
With the smile of someone who's not afraid to lose
Today I fly like a bird that's not afraid to fall to the ground
Because it knows the sky is its own

I won't go back