Lullaby

Can you still hear me, mama?
Have I told you I'm sorry?
The sound of you crying that I've never heard before
I knew but I wanted to not know
The sound of your heart aching
So that only I can hear it
The sound that was finally endured

Before you became a mother, you were a girl who had a small dream in her heart
You are a girl who wanted to live her own life before becoming a mother
You are a girl who wanted to walk as a woman before becoming a mother
The girl who wanted to be called by your name before you were my mother

You became an adult without healing
Carrying me on your back with your name gone
The world only knew you as my mother
Where the hell is your name ㅈㅈhy way

I, I, I still wander at every crossroads
I, I, I, I have never been your resting place
Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry my mama
Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry my mama

Can you still hear me, mama?
The most missed sound
Look at me while I'm sleeping
The sound of a door closing

I locked the door pretending to be asleep because I didn't want to hear your nagging
The table you set, which I had turned away from because I was tired of the same side dishes
Your loneliness sits in my place and fills the empty space
Your big hands that warmly embraced mine
I have never held that hand before, which has grown smaller over time

I, I, I became an adult without healing
What if I get lost again? I, I, I

Just today (when I see your back)
I am you (why on earth am I you)
It's gonna be night (the sound of that crying)
(I wonder if you've ever tried to listen)

All my heart (you always had to be strong)
Leave it to me (but I was always afraid)
To be able to fall asleep (I never could)
(I'm sorry, Mom, I couldn't be a place where you could rest comfortably.)

I, I, I still wander at every crossroads
I, I, I, I have never been your resting place
Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry my mama
Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry my mama