Niji

No matter how long I stand, I can't reach
The daily routine that repeats countless times
Even if I reach it, it's not the end
Even if I grasp it, it slips through, a disappearing mirage

I know, things can't go on like this
Where did the 'ideal self' I sometimes played go?
I know, things will end like this
Spinning around in the pouring rain in the same place

When did my body become like this?
Like a rainbow, I stubbornly believe I'm a special existence
Even if I peek into the mirror, I can't see through
By the time I realize, I'll surely be embracing loneliness again

What's piercing me are lies filled with my past self
I find more things to dislike again

I know, words are myself
Just flowing out among the gathering of the dead
I know, it's not anyone else
I'll show you this vast rainbow

Chasing after the future I once envisioned
Blaming someone else again

I know, things can't go on like this
Can I believe in the 'tomorrow self' I discovered with these eyes?
I know, there are things I must do
Waiting beyond the rainbow, towards another future