『メンヘラ』はじめました (menhera hajimemashita)

Every day is like this
Completely dark, as usual
I'm not looking for understanding
There's no need to have pity

I just blend in properly
Only engage in shallow conversations
And in truth, no one believes
Even if they do, I'll be betrayed
That's when I realize my foolishness

Looking at my wounded arm
People say I look like a madman
I'm used to disdainful looks, but
Is it that bad?

Well, I'm not normal, am I?
What is kindness?
In the end, you're the same, right?
Everything is merely superficial

I'm mentally unstable
I have some mental health issues
I have mental disorders
I'm fragile, please handle with care
Because I have some cracks

I can't live properly
Someone be kinder to me!

This voice doesn't reach anywhere
Do you not hear it too?
Even if you do, you pretend not to, right?
I can't simply ask for help
Or rely on someone and because I can't
I end up cutting myself again
It's a disorder

I'm mentally unstable
I have some mental health issues
I have mental disorders
I'm fragile, please handle with care
Because I have some cracks

Crying won't change anything
Nevertheless, I feel like I'm going to cry again

This voice doesn't reach anywhere
Does anyone even hear it?
Even if they do, they pretend not to, right?
I can't simply ask for help
Or rely on someone and because I can't
I end up cutting myself again

Surely, I don't have a place in this world
I'm not blaming you or anything like that
So don't say it's regrettable
It's always me who feels lonely
And it's okay that way, but
By thinking that you don't need me, I end up hurting myself again
It's a disorder