18 years

In the dazzling spotlight
In the dark TV screen
I wanted to escape for a moment
Is this a promise? Will it really happen?
For 18 years, I lived pretending
For 18 years, I lived wearing a mask
For 18 years, reality and fiction got mixed up
Looking at the back, don't be silent, who are you, huh?
In the hip-hop that started with Deux
For the sake of throwing away life, like an empty shell
Even if I show a fake smile in front of the camera
I want to be cool like a child who threw away his innocence
Like a hidden treasure in a box, I came out
Flying high above the world, I landed from the rooftop
Always looking down on people who are good
Wanting to fly to the sky every day with a dazzling feeling
Now the situation has changed, but the smile and sadness came together
The loneliness deepened, suffocating even more
Intense interest and attention towards you, my breath is short, even in painful times
For twenty minutes yeah
(Everyone is waiting for me)
Oh even if it's hard to breathe
Oh I want to find you
For 18 years, I only wanted a smiling face
For 18 years, my heart is crying silently
For 18 years, I've been looking for a place to rest
Without knowing, I'm slowly getting tired