Deudor

I often think so much with horror about my future
This tough life is only suitable for tough guys
Could it be that one blends in with the environment they had?
And if I'm made of stone, it's because I hit the wall
And now I want to recover those lost years

I have debts but the biggest one is to myself
After crying over so many tragedies I lived
It's ridiculous to think I'll do it for you
Loneliness is more mental than physical
And when your warmth is not there, it intensifies

I feel that a physical barrier separates us
Something that prevents it but doesn't explain it
Something that prevents it but doesn't explain it
Today I have as many scars as promises I made
And whoever speaks without knowing about me doesn't know what they're saying

So many times I wanted time to go back
And I can't go back but I can make it slow down
Composing is a vice that made me feel like Lucifer
Transmuting heartbreaking pains into pleasure

I know I'm different now despite being the same being
But I'm still as dirty as yesterday
So many sleepless nights, so many days without eating
For the times I lost, for the few I won
As many times as I fell are the times I got up
And as much as I suffered, I sang
And as much as I suffered, I sang

And now look at yourself in the mirror and say who you are if you know
Because that mouth doesn't speak truths even if you wash it
Everything is a continuous change so get on the ship
Stop crying for not being able to fly like birds
Character is changeable, weighs less than a pea

But a true will can be giant
I made the decision to be my new before
Because I was the best hater but the worst lover
Loneliness is more mental than physical

And when your warmth is not there, it intensifies
I feel that a physical barrier separates us
Something that prevents it but doesn't explain it
Something that prevents it but doesn't explain it
I see you but I can't touch you, I feel like a damn crazy
I want to enter your light so you stop being my focus

So close and so distant, so far and for so little
One step back and I lose you, half a step forward and I crash into you
I've dreamed of you so many times that I've hated myself for doing it
You're the obsession that will always prevail in my brain
That locked padlock and me, unable to open it

For you, I was a renegade and still I break for you
So many sleepless nights, so many days without eating
For the times I lost, for the few I won
As many times as I fell are the times I got up
And as much as I suffered, I sang
And as much as I suffered, I sang
Loneliness is more mental than physical

And when your warmth is not there, it intensifies
I feel that a physical barrier separates us
Something that prevents it but doesn't explain it
Something that prevents it but doesn't explain it