Mintamos

Bo-boy fifty

I have the affection of thousands, but tell me
What good is it when I feel lonely and have no one?
If I'm nothing but a ghost in the parade
A cripple in this dance, I feel like I'm lacking air

I endure for myself and for what I want
But this gray sky depresses even a warrior
I endure for myself and for what I owe
Because there are only two options: Die or come out whole

Life is too short to cry over it
And these lonely nights are so long
Your presence is my breath and your absence a weapon
Capable of sweetening a bitter reality

I survive with the light of your texts
And curse these distances that separate our bodies
I only have you and the memory of that moment
Novel to me, despite your unawareness

Because in the first minute I had already lied to you
If I had told you the truth, you would have run away
Or maybe you wouldn't have even come
But now our story is a meaningful farce

I don't know what we are, nor do I care
I only think of myself and what it brings me
I've been hit in the face so many times with the door
That I couldn't believe I found yours open

And as I wander aimlessly in this desert
I feel like a dead stub at the mercy of the wind
In search of an affection that I only find in luck
Deprived since childhood, I feel empty inside

And when you return, ask yourself, where were you
When I was so alone and lost that I couldn't even find myself?
Looking for a reciprocity that would calm me down
In your vacant eyes that didn't return my gaze

I've taken desolation so far
That I've only felt accompanied in the mirror
And tell me, where was that hug and that advice
When fame was not visible in my skin?

If everything here is a lie, let's lie
Let's pretend it's real, let's fake it
Let's admit that everything is a fraud
So we don't feel cheated later

If everything here is a lie, let's lie
Let's pretend it's real, let's fake it
Let's admit that everything is a fraud
So we don't feel cheated later