19

Last time I was home was long ago
They demolished it for some reason and someone
My life is not their concern, I changed my plans
But now I have nowhere to go
I know for sure I won't live to twenty

Blue waves call me back to the sea
They don't feel sorrow, love, or eternal losses
I wanted to live like everyone else, but forgive me, mom
Now I'm sure I won't make it to twenty
Stupid waves, they don't feel
That I'm forever losing and will be killed someday
No one will ever wait for me to finish work at five
Because I know for sure I won't live to twenty

Last time I was home was long ago
They broke me somewhere and took
My heart and childhood
I will never see that life that awaits me

I hate all attempts to change me
Sleepy faces rush to suffocate in the morning
And I need your thoughts, they no longer help
And you try again to give me very useful advice
But I would offer the best scotch to your mouth

Blue waves call me back to the sea
They don't feel sorrow, love, or eternal losses
I wanted to live like everyone else, but forgive me, mom
Now I'm sure I won't make it to twenty
Stupid waves, they don't feel
That I'm forever losing and will be killed someday
No one will ever wait for me to finish work at five
Because I know for sure I won't live to twenty

Last time I was home was when I still felt something
Could understand my thoughts and appreciate life
But now it's enough. I know best what to do
Your advice is just a matter, so hold on

You'll cry and get angry, get drunk with friends
While the car on the street suddenly won't start
You're so afraid of disappearing, but don't want to be missed
I no longer hope someone will understand me

Blue waves call me back to the sea
They don't feel sorrow, love, or eternal losses
I wanted to live like everyone else, but forgive me, mom
Now I'm sure I won't make it to twenty
Stupid waves, they don't feel
That I'm forever losing and will be killed someday
No one will ever wait for me to finish work at five
Because I know for sure I won't live to twenty

Dirty waves, they don't listen to the heart
They don't cry at night, they don't believe in love
I don't want to live like this, it will be easier to leave
Now I'm sure I won't make it to twenty