Por Causa Del Destino

I opened the door of my silence and found my soul
A little broken and with a shattered voice
It said nothing, just kept silent
And in its eyes, memories held some disdain
Its gaze said that fighting is useless
Because life lends you stories and time will erase them
The kindest always have to remain alone
Even though no one knows the hatred inside

They say life is about falling and getting up
About problems and overcoming to heal wounds
Betrayals and lies partly help and relieve
To understand that not everything is as it seems as days go by

Not everything is eternal, keeping that in mind is the purpose
People come and go, and it's logical
Trying to give more, maybe giving to receive
Or giving without overthinking, deceiving oneself that's living
Attitude has more power than a billion in the bank
Give me the details in life, I don't want bouquets when dead
Keeping a memory alive is useless
If the memory doesn't embrace me in moments of silence

Words hurt sometimes, bring down your sky
My brain doesn't function well, makes me forget only when I sleep
I don't know how much longer I'll stay alive
I don't know if who I am is who I wanted to be
But my biggest wish is to never have grown up
To feel those hugs and smiles from my mother
Never wonder at night what I do with my father
To sleep tired and wake up with smiles

I seek more than just being a dreamer in this world
To distinguish and finally understand that everything changes and is absolute
That nothing returns to the same and time doesn't stop
That the chest of memories of mirages remains
I've asked for help, looking up to the skies
Convinced that behind the clouds there will be an answer to this
Sometimes in my moments, I stop, pause, and clear my thoughts
Looking into nothingness and refreshing my memory
Surprising myself for enduring so much that burdens me
The cancer of my existence debates between loneliness and love
But what do you think, God, it's better if you take me with you

Among the doors of my path, my shadow will never return
(Among the doors of my silence)
It left in the form of a woman, and time won't turn back
(And I found my soul)
More than a memory that gives me life, today it only wants to end me
(With its shattered voice)
And I want to leave (and only looks told me) and never return
(And with silent words)

Among the doors of my path, my shadow will never return
(Among the doors of my silence)
It left in the form of a woman, and time won't turn back
(And I found my soul)
More than a memory that gives me life, today it only wants to end me
(With its shattered voice)
And I want to leave (it said nothing) and never return (and with its mute voice)

Looks say nothing when there's sadness in between
They say a lot on the contrary, but I don't understand
And I want to leave and never return
Pack my bags and let my spirit fall back but in peace
Voices inside scream begging to recover me
Because destiny played dirty with me but to teach me
To turn my heart into stone and realize that wounds don't burn
My steps will return one day where I was loved
And walk smiling with my head held high
They will seek that path to save me and not leave me anymore
Worry about feeling at peace despite everything
Give me a smile and keep it in any way
You will sleep without expecting anything from anyone, Stan
And whoever values what we are will receive something supernatural
More than love, more than 'I love you,' something called loyalty
Something that is forever, something that never ends

There are moments I won't forget even if I die and am reborn
And they are the ones that have made me fight to be a new man
I've left selfishness, although it hasn't helped much
There's always someone taking advantage of someone's virtues
Fallen and wounded for a long time
But there's always hope that someone else will help you
But just as my chest is full of mirages
God allows me to forget them forever when I sleep

For now, I keep trying to be myself
The poet without a princess because of destiny
The writer with a sad view and no memories of being a child
The lover who has been waiting in oblivion

Among the doors of my path, my shadow will never return
(Among the doors of my silence)
It left in the form of a woman, and time won't turn back
(And I found my soul)
More than a memory that gives me life, today it only wants to end me
(With its shattered voice)
And I want to leave (and only looks told me) and never return
(And with silent words)

Among the doors of my path, my shadow will never return
(Among the doors of my silence)
It left in the form of a woman, and time won't turn back
(And I found my soul)
More than a memory that gives me life, today it only wants to end me
(With its shattered voice)
And I want to leave (it said nothing) and never return (and with its mute voice)