La Tendencia

I feel that those I love are against what I love
There are voices in my head, sometimes I want to listen to them
I'm afraid to believe they're right
Because my heart won't take it anymore

Who will pick up the pieces for me?
I've made some changes in me to see if they accept me
But it's very difficult, nothing ever satisfies them
I laugh at my stories, I cried before recording them
I can't remember the last time

That I didn't feel this way
I think I made it part of me
But I don't want to pretend
That I'm happy like this

I know my sister is a queen
But that doesn't mean I am too
They think it doesn't hurt me, they think it doesn't affect me
That they tear me apart for not being as they would like

I have a weight on my shoulders and sometimes I lose strength
When they shout another name at me with all their might
If that's the trend
I don't want to be in it, because
What fault do I have of others' pasts?

I no longer have to pay for the broken dishes
Tell me why I bear the consequences
I am flesh and bone, it hurts me even if it doesn't seem like it
And although there is something good
Today I vented because I can't

Stop feeling this way
I think I made it part of me
But I don't want to pretend
That I'm happy like this

No, I can't
I can't and I don't want to either
No, I can't
I can't and I don't want to either
I don't want