Matemagia

I started from scratch, more alone than ever
Every second hurt
Caught in a trio with my loneliness and my fears
Locked in my room, happiness far away

Out in the sticks
My sixth sense failed me because, even being a fan of the seventh art
I couldn't see your eighth wonder when it popped up on my screen
I got kicked out like the ninth planet
I started selling lottery tickets

Because in this solar system, you had to be damn blind
Not to realize you were the only star shining
And that absolutely everything revolved around you
Marking each of my seasons, tides, and eclipses
So please, never dim your light
Math magic

I know time slips through my fingers
If we don't see each other, it's out of fear
Of failing again
Oh nara-nara-nara na
If we don't see each other, it's fear of starting from scratch
And falling in love again (Where are you, where are you?)

Love isn't mathematical, Javier said
And here I am, doing the math, trying to figure out where I went wrong
If I chose to love one over sleeping with a hundred
It's because you touched my soul, and no one else could do that

It hurts to be broken, I take note
Seeing you with someone else has shattered me
What strong sobs, I make another
What luck, what madness, and what loneliness

And tell me who will give me those little massages on my temples
And those texts asking: What time are you coming?
You never asked me: Miguel, how much cash do you have?
You always wanted my well-being, not to take my things

I prefer your bars to being trapped in this loneliness
You can get out of jail, but leaving your bed is much harder
I have a picture of you that I've tried to throw away
And every time I try, I look at it and put it back

Your sole crushed me, and nothing comforts me
And I struggle to find something else that moves me
I tried to forget you with many new people
And all I managed was to remember old scars

And you slip in, like water through my cracks
Flooding everything with this pain that tightens
Paralyzing my soul that once was so restless
You used to come to my concerts, now you leave me confused

I know time slips through my fingers
If we don't see each other, it's out of fear
Of failing again
Oh nara-nara-nara na
If we don't see each other, it's fear of starting from scratch
And falling in love again (Where are you, where are you?)

My insides are just open wounds
And each one I've turned into poems
This pain you caused gave me my best lyrics
But it made us irreconcilable like Errejón and Iglesias

And I can't make a living off all this attention
And there's no pill that cures this depression
In the prison of this pressure, my expression shows
Of someone who climbed to the top and got scared by the view

And I know I have the talent to make gold
But in exchange for being okay today, I'd give it all away
Millions and mansions could come
But what the hell is the point? If I’d have to enjoy them alone

And I don't take you to bed anymore, now I write you lyrics
I turned you into art, the hermit was between your legs
Oblivion has given me a tax audit
For not paying the tax of loving without taking off the blindfolds

I feel weird, a chest like the closed Sun
Terror hits me like in Brazil with Bolsonaro
You weren't one of those who think about expensive bags
You filled me with warmth, and it wasn't August, nor summer

I traveled the world without leaving your bed
Just with your company, I felt like I was in Punta Cana
Trivial conversations, full of intelligence
Sailing through your waters and canals, I felt like I was in Venice

I know time slips through my fingers
If we don't see each other, it's out of fear
Of failing again
Oh nara-nara-nara na
If we don't see each other, it's fear of starting from scratch
And falling in love again (Where are you, where are you?)

And screw Paris, New York, and Thailand
And your icy heart, like fjords in Iceland
Since then, I no longer believe in magic
Because discovering your tricks made them lose their charm

Sinning like a rookie, like Luka Doncic
I’m thinking about my music, you’re thinking about your outfit
I’m so much like Canserbero, and you’re so much like Luis Fonsi
You, a traitor like Figo, and I, always loyal like Totti
Soulmates fighting over the inheritance
Whoever puts a price on everything, appreciates nothing

And I who have never stepped into a church
Now confess my sins and plead for mercy
My life seems like a Stephen novel
And you out there partying, surrounded by Stiflers

I changed my status on Facebook, now it says I'm single
I even signed up for English and got my bikini line waxed
And now I only keep memories
And that last cigarette with lipstick you threw on the ground
I live in an eternal mourning thinking that your goodbye would just be another see you later

And having the first hookup of the year in October
Here it’s shit, not water that covers
I put my soul into my songs, they’re my Horcruxes
And if my sorrows are art, my insides are the Louvre

I’m smoking more than ever, drinking like always
Butterflies in my stomach have turned into snakes
I’d rather you not tell me what you feel
Just to blow up later saying you regret it

My life, a widow, as I only see escapes
I need a potion, but I can't find the druid
Your eighth wonder is now in ruins
Because a flower dies if it has no one to care for it

I know time slips through my fingers
If we don't see each other, it's out of fear
Of failing again
Oh nara-nara-nara na
If we don't see each other, it's fear of starting from scratch
And falling in love again (Where are you, where are you?)