Hago Lo Que Hago

Twenty-one years old and I don’t deserve this
Day after day, I wonder if it’s worth the rest
I’m honest, I don’t even deserve to breathe
I wait for the moment when my time will end on my own
My mom drowning in tears
While my little god counts one by one, that’s why I have to answer to him

I’ve caused so many hammers that I won’t reach forty
But let it be in the hands of the Lord
Living with the sins I commit when the sun comes up
And my mother understands that it hasn’t been easy
Different faces confront me like a costume party
These paths to choose, I picked the easiest one

Fast life road that almost kills me
If I had chosen the narrow path
I would’ve been rewarded with a thousand years to live
And if my soul escapes when I leave
That means the day has come, don’t try to revive me
Don’t try to revive me
Because my time has come

That’s why I do what I do
I pay what I pay
Trapped in freedom, condemned
I talk shit, shit clearly!
If you knew what I’ve been through
In the past
Imagine if you were by my side

That’s why I do what I do
I pay what I pay
Trapped in freedom, condemned
I talk shit, shit clearly!
If you knew what I’ve been through
In the past
Imagine if you were by my side

As a kid, I didn’t see it coming
That things with mom and dad would change
I thought they loved each other
When I realized he wasn’t coming home
I prepared myself
And looked for love in the streets and with my boys

I’d kill for my brother and die for my sister
I live for my daughters and for my mom, I spit my soul
I feel death chasing me and catching up
So my grandma doesn’t protect me with her prayers and praises
Step by step, year after year
Resisting the government’s force and its lies

The police causing harm, interrogating, mistreating
But I live as a free and associated state
Fighting to get what’s mine on the market
For those who thought this was easy, they were wrong
Many slaves were killed and mistreated
That’s why I do what I do

That’s why I do what I do
I pay what I pay
Trapped in freedom, condemned
I talk shit, shit clearly!
If you knew what I’ve been through
In the past
Imagine if you were by my side

That’s why I do what I do
I pay what I pay
Trapped in freedom, condemned
I talk shit, shit clearly!
If you knew what I’ve been through
In the past
Imagine if you were by my side

Right now, I feel hurt
Because I can’t be a father or a husband even though I’ve wanted to
In a relationship, my music punishes me
Watching how my girl gets wet but in tears, I pity myself
Because I lose what I want
And for being a rapper, I end up carrying souls to the cemetery

I have support from my cousins and my brother
But even my mom tells me I’m not going anywhere
I live however I want
And I don’t sleep to not satisfy the time that awaits me
Under the ground, recording almost all the hours
Look at my eyes, from the heart

Anyone swears I’m on drugs
But I’m judged by people
Who don’t have a heart even to give bread to a pigeon
Now
So I do what I do sometimes
While the world behind me disappears

That’s why I do what I do
I pay what I pay
Trapped in freedom, condemned
I talk shit, shit clearly!
If you knew what I’ve been through
In the past
Imagine if you were by my side

That’s why I do what I do
I pay what I pay
Trapped in freedom, condemned
I talk shit, shit clearly!
If you knew what I’ve been through
In the past
Imagine if you were by my side

If you all knew
What we’ve been through, the war we’ve battled
For this music, if you understood, we’ve lost our women
Our families, for this music, for this money
The world is the most important
Because this is a fucking addiction
Something we can’t escape from, but we live for it
Epidemic records, because it’s an epidemic
Life sentence